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When it came to kids, I was on the “Two-and-Through” plan. Then we had a miscarriage. This turned out to be a completely God-inspired event.

I was listening to a tape made by Rosemary Taylor (a local astrologer) as she gave a reading to Grace. At one point in the tape, Rosemary began talking about the current pregnancy (our third.) Grace knew I wasn’t happy about having a third kid. Grace wanted to be happy about the pregnancy, but she was afraid of my emotional set, so she went to go see Rosemary where she hoped to learn what to do about my dark cloud.

Rosemary simply gave her a wonderful Rosemary reading, full of affirmation and hope. One of the key messages in that reading, however, said I was looking at the work of it, I was looking how fractured time seemed already, with not enough time to give the first two kids, not enough energy to give, not enough, not enough, not enough. I knew this intellectually but, you know, sometimes you just need to hear it.

As I lay on our office floor staring up at the ceiling, my eyes got as big as dinner plates and I said, “Oh, that’s it exactly! That’s exactly where I’m at and this is exactly where I need to go. I need to see the miracle of it, the fun of it.”

This was my first real experience of “God can change a person’s heart in an instant.” Sure enough, within that moment I was, “Okay, no, I understand now. This is great.”

Within five minutes of my epiphany, the baby miscarried.  After being with us for almost two months, it was as if the baby said, “Okay, he’s got it.  Let’s start over.”

A month after that, we were pregnant again and later that year we would welcome our third child, our beautiful daughter, Natalia.